We were halfway to California when…
Last Sunday I didn’t post a blog because I wanted to find the right words to say on this topic. It’s good to have goals and make plans in life. It gives us something to look forward to and work toward. Without them, a lot of us would wander around aimlessly until we found the wrong things to fill our time. But sometimes, no matter how well you plan, or how hard you work, or how pure your intentions are, things don’t happen the way you thought they would.
New Years was a great way to celebrate all that we had accomplished this past year- and we had accomplished a lot. We said goodbye to our friends and family in Missouri and didn’t plan to be back until July. It felt so good to be back on the road. We talked the whole way about all the possibilities ahead of us. We would stay in California for a few months, then go to Oregon and Washington, Montana and Wyoming, finally heading East. We could stay on the beach or go see the Red Wood Forest. Who knew what unseen and brand new sights were in store.
It was going to take us a few days to make it to California. At the time I had been working online, so we had to stop and park for my scheduled hours. Our first night we stayed in Yukon, Oklahoma, the birthplace of Garth Brooks. We even parked on Garth Brooks Road. It was so cold- only 15 degrees. We started early the next morning so we could warm up in the van. That day we made it all the way to San Jon, New Mexico. If you’ll remember from previous blogs, we’ve stayed at a park in San Jon a few different times. I logged in for my shift that night as usual when a turn of events occurred.
That evening I was unexpectedly let go from my job. There was no warning or notice. I was really upset. I cried a lot. What were we going to do? This was not at all a part of our plan. Staford was still looking for online work, so we were both jobless just like that. Financially, we were not in a place to be jobless. I was so devastated that we didn’t even talk about it that night. I couldn’t bring myself to because my mind was in such a negative place. But the next morning we had to face the situation. After hours of going over our options, praying, and deliberation, we decided to go home.
Some might think it would have been a better story if we would have kept going and figured it out. And maybe they’re right. But I believe that there is a season for everything, and right now I’m in a season where I just need to trust. We are at peace with our decision. That same day we decided to go home we drove back toward Missouri and stayed in Yukon, Oklahoma again. Less than 24 hours before we were talking about our plan ahead. Now we were discussing all our options for when we got back home.
I still have my ups and downs about the whole situation. We put everything we had into our van and our dream. Sometimes I feel like a loser living in the backroom at my moms house. But then I think about something my mom said to me on the phone when I told her what had happened with my job. “Megan, think about how lucky you are. You have lots of parents that you can live with and eat with for free. Other people in your situation don’t have that. Come home, make some money, and get back out there.”
I wanted to be completely honest and transparent about the situation we are in and what we’re going through because not everything is easy and perfect. Sometimes you have to adjust your plans over and over again. And sometimes you have to keep trying in order to achieve something you thought you already achieved. I’ve had several moments in my life where I’ve realized that the world doesn’t revolve around me or my plans. This moment was one of them, and that’s okay.
So what’s next for us? We are currently back in Missouri. We are working and enjoying time with our friends and family. Our plan is to save our money for the next few months, find other online ways of income, and get back on the road. Once we are able to get back on the road, we want to go back to the West coast and then go to South Carolina for family vacation. After that we hope to travel even more. If you’re going through an unfamiliar season of life, you aren’t alone. As always, thanks for reading Into Nature.